I wonder what people do who have worked at the same place for years & years, then suddenly told they are gone? It must be devastating to them! For years, I didn't care to change the pace with something new, but as time has passed, it has got me more settled. I have worked when I am 4 yrs...but come 2 days...I will join the line of unemployed. Scares me to death!! Never did I think I would have these feelings, this insecurity, helpless feeling. I don't know where to start now. Especially in a huge college town!!! To say this has helped my over all health issue of depression is an understatement!! Then toss in what I know is menopausal symptoms...geez....just would someone throw me a life-line!!!
I pray. But to ask for something for me is hard. Even with asking God. I never care to ask Him to help others, to be there for others. But to ask Him for me...is very hard. Some have told me it is due to low - esteem. That I don't feel I deserve it personally. Not sure. Maybe.
But.....I do ask others for prayers and that makes me feel better. So, if you are reading....just throw one out there for me...I know I ask that alot. Many others are worse than I am. Just ask that He show me where it is I am to go from here. All I really need.
